Things are bad here at Team Falderol.
I'm six days into my first round of antidepressants. One of the early side effects, which will diminish in a few weeks, is increased anxiety. In my case, this means increased increased anxiety, the kind that made it impossible for me to get out of bed until noon yesterday. It's probably good that I only have a part time job right now.
When I'm up, things are fine. But these bad spells, they come out of nowhere. They're getting worse. I know I just have to be patient, but when I spend an hour on the couch in my mom's arms with racking sobs...well, I'm having trouble here.
So, now I'm on another drug to battle the anxiety. Hi, my name is Lady F, and I'm a former holistic med-head gone pharmaceutical cabinet. But you know, this drug made me get out of bed today. It's too numbing for me to be comfortable with it for any length of time, but it will suffice for these darkest days.
And it's lonely out here in the gloaming.
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